R1 Day 30

To continue or not to continue...That is the question. This morning was not terrible. I weighed in at -0.5 lbs even considering the fact that I had little sleep. I guess I didn't really have little sleep, it just felt like it. I have reached the point where I don't know what to do. I have been successful in part because The Man has been out of town on business so there were no "fast food" fixes that I had to turn down, no eating out, and frankly, not much cooking. I don't mind cooking, I just have a hard time cooking when I can't taste the food to see if it is done or spiced right or if the flavors work. Not being able to mix foods, not being able to eat certain foods, and not being able to eat oil really hinders that aspect of cooking. I don't think my family would like it especially if I told them they were going to eat some of the food I have been eating. Not that my food was bad, it just wasn't what they are used to. So now, what do I do? I think I can continue on for a few more days without causing a problem but after that, I don't know. I want to keep going for the rest of my forty days just to see if I can lose more. I am just shy of 20 pounds right now and would love it if I could actually lose something more like 30. But I am a realist and know that with my current record, that is not happening. But even five more pounds would be great. To be down 25 pounds right now, I could handle that. I've decided that after I move on to phase 3 I am going to start muscle building to tone up my stomach and, well, body. I would like to like my body someday and I hope this is going to get me the jump start that I need.

Today I had an apple, a really late lunch of fish and cucumbers, and I was hungry so I had another apple which half I ate raw and the other half I nuked with cinnamon. As for dinner, I had chicken and tomatoes. I am trying to get my water in today but every time I drink water, I freeze. I don't quite understand it. I took some herbs this evening to try to help things "move along" because nothing has been happening with that respect for the past couple of days. I am wondering if my bowels being sluggish has affected any loss that I might have had. Who knows. I have read about people taking vitamin B12 shots or some sort of vitamin B shot while doing this diet and with all my research, I've never looked into why they do that. I will remedy that situation tonight.