R2 P2 Day 31

So I'm a loser. Yesterday I had dried green mangoes, cookies, I had fish for lunch, and finished off my day with an egg and cheese omelette. So as you can see I didn't do the transition into Phase 3 so I guess I could just start that today but I've already had two cookies. I am dumb, I know. I only had the weekend left and then my three day transition but I didn't make it. I just haven't had my heart in it this time so I may have to do this again which sucks. I had no change in weight which is surprising. I really thought I would have gained a boat load but I'm sure it will catch up to me so from here on out, I think I will move onto Phase 3 and try to stay away from carbs and especially sugar. I pretty much stopped taking the drops last night. I really hope I can maintain from here on out. I am going to start doing some resistance training so that I can tone up and maybe like the figure I have.

R2 P2 Day 30

Yesterday I was good. I had chicken soup for lunch, an apple for a snack, and then beef with cabbage for dinner. I wonder if the cabbage doesn't agree with me because it seems that I always gain on the days that I have cabbage. Maybe I should learn. I guess that's why I rarely have it. I am so tempted to just end it today but I really only have 4 days left until I stop the drops which is good because I'm almost out. I weighed in this morning at +1 lb. It really sucks. Maybe today will be a better day.

R1 P2 day 29

So yesterday was an apple day. Nothing special there. My apples were smaller this time around since I was having trouble eating them in past times. I didn't do anything special. I did exercise yesterday but since it was just walking, I doubt it did anything. This morning I weighed in at -1 lb. I wonder if that will stick tomorrow or even go down. I only have a few more days left until I stop the drops on Sunday. I am hoping for a miracle but am doubting that it will come. Oh well. I made it this far even if it was a troubled journey. Keep pressing on.

R2 P2 Day 28

Yesterday was a total bust. I had jerky and an apple in the morning, and a little ham later. So I decided to skip lunch. Later I had a couple apples and then for dinner I had a chicken salad. To make matters worse, I had a moment of stupidity and had like 4 cookies even though they tasted really, really sweet to me. I just couldn't stop eating them. I didn't even like them. I normally do but for some reason my cookies didn't turn out. I was going to give them away but they look terrible so now my kids will just have to eat them. I don't think they'll have a problem doing that. I decided to do another detox bath. I'm not usually one for taking baths because I find myself counting down the time until I can get out. I think it's boring. I don't find it relaxing at all. I had a major headache afterward so I downed most of my 32+ oz bottle of water and then went to bed. Woke this morning at about 3 and had to use the bathroom then again in the morning at my usual time. Weighed in this morning with no change which is better than I could have hoped for so I am doing an apple day today. I don't know if I am going to make it the full week. How pathetic is that!

R2 P2 Day 27

Yesterday was Sunday which seems to throw me off more often than not. I had a late lunch of a chicken salad. When I got home I had an apple, took my drops half an hour later, then about an hour or an hour and a half later I had dinner of fish with a spinach salad. I tried to drink all my water but I'm sure once again that I didn't make it. This morning I weighed in with no change. I really am ready to give up and move on to phase 3. Here it is, day 27 and I've only gone down about 13.5 pounds from the starting weight of this round which was about ten pounds more than I ended last round. So I've really only netted about 3.5 pounds in almost a month. It is really sad. It's my own fault though. I know it is. I am just feeling like I should just move on and plan for a round three next March or something. I guess I could figure it out later. I really only have less than a week left but I'm just not feeling it this round. I need to go back and review the rules for phase 3.

R2 P2 Day 26

Yesterday I did well, at least I thought so. I started my day out with a lunch of chicken salad with my favorite sweet mustard dressing. Later I had an apple for a snack and dinner was teriyaki beef with tomatoes. I've never been a fan of teriyaki beef before but I make it a different way and it seems to make all the difference. It was good. I tried to drink a lot because I've been having dry mouth which I have read can be a problem. I didn't drink enough for the day but still more than I have been. I have been having motivational issues lately and it's all I can do to keep going. It's not that it's hard, it's just that I had just a bad cheat week that I have hardly lost any weight at all this round. I was really hoping it would all just fall off since about 10 pounds of it was regain. But it didn't. It felt a little easier at the beginning but then it just kind of stopped being easy and has become really hard. I only have one more week until I stop taking the drops and transition into phase 3 and I'm not going to make goal this round. I don't think I'll even come close. I have to lose 1-2 pounds every day from here on out just to make it down to the next 10's digit. See? Lacking motivation. I don't have the same enthusiasm as I did last round. This morning I weighed in a few times. The first time was when I got up and I didn't like the number. After a little while and expelling what needed to be, I weighed in at -1.5 lbs. Much better. I weighed in again after my shower and the lower weight held so that is the weight I am recording today. It may mean I have a gain for tomorrow but for today I can go another day.

R2 P2 Day 25

Yesterday was a complete and total bust! I gained yesterday morning so I had a "poor me" day and decided it wasn't worth it. I only have about 8 days left until I stop taking the drops and transition into phase three and I don't really feel like I'm going to make it. By this time around last round I had lost more weight and didn't have the desire to cheat. This round I think my heart isn't in it. I had an apple in the morning and a pastrami sandwich with pickles for lunch. After that I drank water and had half a big bag of sour patch kids. Which, really tasted too sweet but I still ate it. I only had an apple the rest of the night. Today I may have to pull out all the stops just shy of doing an apple day. I did weigh in at -0.5 lbs this morning but it's little consolation when I gained a pound and a half yesterday. Here's hoping I do better this weekend. I was invited to dinner on Sunday but I think I am just going to pass. I have got to get some more weight off. Even five pounds will do at this point. I am so frustrated!

R2 P2 Day 24

Yesterday I thought I did well. I went for a walk in the morning. For lunch I had fish and tomatoes with an apple. Half of the apple I cooked with stevia and cinnamon. For dinner I had beef and spinach soup. I made a lot of broth for some reason. Later that night I did day one of couch to 5k with my friend. It wasn't as fast as I would normally have liked but she just had a baby not too long ago so I wasn't going to push it. I came home and had a really nasty half of a grapefruit. I peeled it and I must have eaten too much of the pith because it left this metallic, nasty taste in my mouth that I just couldn't get rid of. I tried drinking water but it made the water taste gross. I tried eating a couple blackberries and then a couple raspberries but to no avail. I finally took a couple pinches of some cheddar I had just finely shred earlier in the day. I sucked on those. Whatever happened yesterday sucked royally because I weight in at +1.5 lbs. It really sucks! I am tempted to give up. I had a three pound loss yesterday and then I gain back half of it today trying to stay on plan? I didn't even let myself cheat! All I can think of is that it must have been what happened with the grapefruit. I just have ten more days that I have to hold on. I have only lost the weight back from last round. I haven't even lost anything else! ARGH!

R2 P2 Day 23

Yesterday I did my first apple day this round. I had my first apple around 11:45 and had another one before 2 pm. I am not doing well. I felt kind of sick after my second apple. I probably shouldn't have eaten it. I had another one for dinner and felt sick afterwards. So I called it a night. I tried to pull out all the stops last night and did another soak in the tub for about half an hour or so. This time I didn't make the water hot enough so it cooled off too soon. But at the end I weighed myself and it seemed to help. This morning, I weighed in at -3 lbs! Yay! Finally! It feels like I've been hovering around at the other weight for so long that it was depressing me. I wanted to stop and just do something else but I didn't want to quit. So hopefully I can do better from here on out. Yay! One thing I don't know is whether I should have an apple this morning because the apple day says to start and finish at lunch. I think I'll just skip it. I only got in three apples yesterday. That's all I could stomach.

R2 P2 Day 22

Yesterday was yet another experiment. I started my lunch off with raspberries and lunch meat again because I was in such a mood I really did not want to cook and I was close to stopping somewhere but I didn't. I was in such a mood that I had double my normal allowance of meat for lunch. I really didn't care because I was mad and doing some emotional eating. My day got busy and...who am I kidding. I spent most of the day on pinterest. It really sucks you in. After the kids got home we did our usual routine of homework and music, etc. dinner was late again. I made cheesy chicken and rice for the kids and it was all I could do not to eat it. It smelled so good. But I didn't. I had my chicken and spinach soup. I make my own clear broth instead of using store bought. I just need to get more water in for the day and then I am set. I ended up eating an apple, well, it was more like two thirds of an apple. It doesn't really matter. I tried to justify it in my head that maybe I didn't get enough calories but this morning when I weighed in I had no change in weight. Again. so today I am doing an apple day and a detox bath to see if I can get this going again. This sucks. I am very tempted right now to quit because I don't feel like I am going anywhere. But then I have to remind myself that I've already gotten back down to the weight I was at the end of last round. Well, I am almost there and if I quit then it's just a bigger uphill battle from here. Did I say "this sucks?" It really does.

R2 P2 Day 21

Yesterday was an experiment. I had a large apple and lunch meat for lunch, then for a snack I had some sliced tomatoes. For dinner I had chicken with shirataki noodles and onions. These noodles are made of tofu. I probably shouldn't have eaten them until phase 3. I hope it doesn't screw me. I don't plan on eating them often until I am done with this round because they were good but I don't know what kind of effect they will have on me. I can't process wheat well so it is an alternative to regular noodles. I cooked them with soy sauce and chicken. It was good. I finished off my day with an apple and then a little bit later it felt like things didn't agree with me. And they didn't. Since I was worried for the day I decided to do a detox bath again. I was only in for about half an hour but I couldn't take the heat anymore so I got out. I weighed myself afterwards and even though my ankles were swollen and I looked like I was retaining water, I weighed in the same as the morning. I drank water to ensure that I wasn't dehydrated and went to bed. This morning I weighed in with no change but after my walk I weighed in with a 1 lb loss. So I don't know what to think. I may do another soak again this week. Probably not today. I'm not much of a bath person. I prefer showers. I hope I can go down from here because I am almost down all the weight that I lost last round. I would like to get moving on things that have been around for a while. Fingers crossed!

R2 P2 Day 20

Yesterday was interesting. I sort of missed lunch and didn't eat all my food I guess. I took my usual doses but I didn't eat until 4 pm. I had some lunch meat. Not the best choice but I didn't feel like cooking and eating two meals since it was Sunday. Later for dinner I had chicken and a cabbage slaw with sweet mustard dressing. I took my time eating it and afterwards I didn't feel so great. I don't know if I just ate too much cabbage or if it was the fact that it was raw, green cabbage. Who knows. My stomach ached a little after I ate it. But still, to get my fruits in, I peeled a grapefruit and ate most of it. The rest of it went to Thing 3 who cannot let me eat fruit alone so it's something I expect. I had stomach pains and couldn't sleep last night until I expelled some things. I am supposing now that it was gas pains from the cabbage. I've never had that before but I've never eaten that much raw cabbage before. I usually eat it in addition to a regular salad and it is only a minor part of the salad. I don't know if I'll try raw cabbage in that quantity again. This morning I weighed in at -1.5 lbs. Yay! I am hoping to keep things going from here on out until the end of my round and then actually do the transition in phase 3. We'll see how it goes though, I haven't been very faithful to the protocol this round. Here's hoping.

R2 P2 Day 19

Yesterday was another bust. Seriously? I suck. Lunch was late and it was fish with cucumbers. I had a late apple and then for dinner which was also late, I had two pieces of LC Italian Cheese Bread and some lunch meat. So I am screwed for weigh in. I also didn't drink anywhere near enough water. Since it's Sunday, I will take my day of rest and drink water to make up for yesterday. This morning came in just as I expected. I weighed in at +0.5 lbs. That's what I get for cheating. I have to do better from here on out or else this was all for nothing.

R2 P2 Day 18

Yesterday I was good save for tasting my family chicken. Just one bite was all I had of the in between process, not the finished product. I had grapefruit for my fruit instead of apples. For lunch I had fish with cucumbers and dinner was teryaki beef with tomatoes. I resisted the urge to snack or cheat. Finally. I can't believe I've pretty much done a week of cheating! That's terrible! This morning I weighed in at -1 lb. I just have to keep things up and all will be well. I know I'm not going to make my goal now because I cheated and lost so much time. It's day 18 and I only have about 24 days left if I max out my time. That means I only make goal if I lose a pound everyday without fail and I don't know if that is doable. Last round I didn't lose everyday. In fact I only lost about 2/3 of the time. I am hoping that I can at least lose 17 more pounds this round at the very least. I am crossing my fingers for that.

R2 P2 Day 17

Yesterday was another bust. Hopefully I can really get to it today. Yesterday I had beef with tomatoes for lunch but I had a little extra beef that probably had more fat than I needed. I also had some ham. I had only one apple yesterday and then for dinner is when I lost it. The Man made bacon and french fries. I know, that's a real winning combination but that is how we roll here. I had some fries with ketchup and some bacon. Afterwards I felt sick. I had a sick stomach and I was kind of ornery. I don't know if that last part was due to the food but that's how I felt. I didn't drink enough water again but I'll try to remedy that today. This morning I weighed in with no change. I have never felt so happy to have no change. If you look at my stats for this round it would appear that I have stalled for a week and should do an apple day but I haven't yet because I know why I haven't lost weight. It's because I've been cheating so I am just going to stick to the regimen until I have an actual stall. I really hope today goes well. I don't know why I keep cheating. I didn't cheat at all last round. I haven't given up because next week it will be a lot easier for me so I don't want to screw things up and have to wait to start again. I hope that I'm okay doing this.

R2 P2 Day 16

I was bad again yesterday. lunch meat and zucchini bread screwed me up. And I'm sure also insufficient water didn't help. Lunch was fish and cucumbers while dinner was a chicken salad with sweet mustard dressing. I only had one apple and maybe 7 raspberries for my fruits. I know I keep saying this but it is getting frustrating to know I'm already two weeks in and I haven't even gotten myself down the ten pounds that I gained back. This morning I weighed in with no change. I will have to try harder if I want this to work and I do.

R2 P2 Day 15

So yesterday was still kind of a bust. I didn't drink enough water and didn't exercise. I had a late lunch of teryaki beef with a salad and an apple. Then for the rest of the day I didn't eat anything until dinner time where I had a piece of zucchini bread, two apples and some lunch meat. I'm terrible I know. The name of the game this round is "dedication" which I am obviously lacking. I stayed up late last night and feel tired this morning because of it. I was retaining water yesterday and am slightly this morning too so I was surprised when I weighed in at -1.5 lbs. Now if I can just keep it up. I should be farther along by now but am not because I've been screwing around. I need to get serious and just do this so that I can get on with my life and focus on exercise rather than weight loss. I want to get down to a good weight and then hit the weights hard to tone up and strengthen rather than just try to fit in my pants well. Hopefully I can do it this round. I only have 26 days or so left in which to lose about 22 pounds. I might have to just come close and then work from there. If I can lose at least 17 more then I will be okay but I would definitely like to lose the full 22 because they say the last 5-10 pounds are the hardest to lose. I have to do it.

R2 P2 Day 14

I am such a loser! Yesterday I had every intention of being good but it being a holiday, my brother called me up and we got together for a BBQ. That is my downfall! I love the smells, the taste of the food. It is my comfort food. Alas, I did not make it. And since I was throwing all caution to the wind anyway, I pretty much ate what I wanted. I had chicken and cabbage for lunch, staying within protocol. I also had an apple. Then at dinner time, I was late at taking my drops so it probably was not done properly. I had bratwurst and beef with some rice and lots of broccoli. I also had a slice or so of my chocolate zucchini bread so that I could test it since it was a new recipe. I also finished off my candy so that won't be a temptation anymore. I was so bloated last night and my legs and ankles were so swollen. I felt awful. This morning I weighed in at +1.5 lbs. The worst I've ever done on this protocol. I've never cheated this bad before. It's really sad. I have to do better from now on. I will do better! I won't give up!

R2 P2 Day13

So yesterday was an experiment in itself. It was my first time fasting on the protocol. I did well all day until it was time for me to eat. I ended up having chicken with cabbage for dinner and also an apple. I could have left it at that but I was in a mood last night so I had more candy. Serious?! I am just sabotaging myself this round. I weighed in with no change again. Thus far I have only lost about 8.5 pounds in 13 days. By this time around last round I think I had stayed pretty close to a pound a day. I'm not sure but that is what I think. I have to get serious about this and I'm starting today! No more candy, no more cheating, no more gaining. I could technically do an apple day but apples are so expensive right now so I'm trying to avoid that. I'll give it another day or two to see if that helps since I'm planning on doing 40 days this round. If I don't start seeing a decline on the scale then I'm just going to have to do one. Wish me luck!

R2 P2 Day 12

Epic Fail!!!! Yesterday, I had some jerky, fish and tomatoes for lunch, and then a Wendy's BLT Cobb salad with vinaigarette dressing for dinner. Add in some candy and a late evening apple and you can bet that I am going to gain. I spent the day painting at my friend's house. I drank a lot but probably not enough to make up for the extra exertion and sweating. I was hoping that painting for 12 hrs would keep the weight off and I had planned on just making food when I got home but The Man told me he was just going to get me a salad. Of course there was cheese, bacon, and eggs in the salad so all my hard work went out the window. This morning I weighed in at +1 lb. I was hoping not to have to say that. Today is also fast Sunday so I haven't eaten anything but the sacrament today so far so we'll see how today will affect me. I am hoping that it didn't send my body into starvation mode. I am still taking the drops but not eating or drinking. I hope that it won't affect me poorly. Dinner is coming up shortly and I have to fix the family dinner. And then myself dinner also. I have been feeling irritable today but I don't know if that is because I haven't eaten or if that is just a reaction to my children. I hope tomorrow brings better news.

R2 P2 Day 11

Yesterday I was very good and only ate my appointed things. I had fish and cucumbers for lunch and beef and tomatoes for dinner. I also had my two apples. I tried to get in enough water but I'm sure I was short. This morning I weighed in at -1 lb. It was great. Today I am busy so hopefully that will keep me under control.