R1 Day 19

I really wish I could lose a pound or two instead of this half a pound crap. I guess it's better than nothing or even a gain. It seems like my weight loss has slowed but I still look the same and it is exasperating! I lost another 0.5 lbs this morning and today I'll try to continue with the water and even try to make sure I get in my second fruit just in case my body has gone into starvation mode. I guess if I look at the overall picture, it's 15 lbs in 19 days. That's better than what I've been doing I guess. Trying to look on the bright side but having a hard time.

Fast forward to evening time.

I don't know what is with me. I am having such trouble wanting to eat everything. I am happy to say that I have not cheated but I have been tempted to everyday. It probably doesn't help that I've been on Pinterest looking at food and recipes. That is a terrible thing to do while on a "diet." I am trying my best but frankly, I'm ready to be done with this whole thing. I know people say, I could do anything for a...(insert time frame here) but this is getting old. I see the scale change but I don't see any physical changes going on. I don't think anyone else does either. With 15 pounds gone you'd think that something might look different. I couldn't tell you if the drops are making me more ornery or what but they sure aren't making me entirely happy. I see all these people whose bodies have transformed and I haven't even lost an inch it seems. I don't know what to make of this. ARGH!!!

I bought a kettlebell and tried it out today. I must be doing something wrong because I tried some of the moves that I found on youtube and google and I didn't feel a thing. Maybe it's something you feel tomorrow but I don't think I even broke a sweat. Perhaps I'm doing it wrong. I'll try it again tonight and see if I can't make something hurt other than my forearms. I haven't figured out how to get it to work my abs. So far it just feels like an arm exercise. I'll just have to keep trying.

I have been really hungry today so this morning I had an orange, a melba toast, lunch was chicken and spinach soup. I had an apple and another melba toast and then finished off my day beef and raw grape tomatoes. I still have to get in my water for today. I said I was going to do better so I guess I better try to keep that promise. I'll be drinking 10 oz every 20 min or so to get it all in. That means I should get it in by 10 tonight if I am diligent. Here's to hydration!