Failure! Or, a change of plans

I have been struggling with this diet lately for many reasons. This time around I'm just not really feeling it. I had read a post on FB about a friend of mine doing a paleo 30 diet and I thought I might give that a try. It mostly incorporates healthy eating instead of starvation diets and the like. It has been hard for me because I am a snacker and I can't do that if I am trying to go paleo. I should have more veggies on which to snack but then I want dressing to go on top of it. This morning I weighed in at the same as yesterday. Which, in itself, is practically a miracle. I am foregoing the HCG stuff for now because I'm going to try to do it without any "help aids." I am just going to do paleo and IF and hope for the best. What I really need is a change of lifestyle from one of convenience to one of healthy eating. I used to be that way until the Hubbs started picking out the veggies from the dinners I made. Now things are a little too simple. I need to get back to basics and start cooking again. I need to find the energy because right now I don't have it.

Today I had sugar snap peas with garlic and red pepper flakes for breakfast. A lot of them. Then I went on a walk today with my neighbor and we pushed our strollers uphills for about an hour and a half. Lunch was a chicken salad with a sweet mustard dressing. I have been snacking on freeze dried apples all day. It says I'm not supposed to eat any fruits that are dried but I am assuming that is because regularly dried fruits tend to have sugar added. These did not. So we'll see tomorrow. Dinner came in between running the kiddos around all night and consisted of a grapefruit and then later because I was starving, 3 fried eggs. Mix that in with some very bad for me deli meat and that makes up my day. I am actually still hungry but too tired to cook anything as it is almost 10 pm as I write this. Tomorrow I will be catching up on the water I didn't drink enough of today as I do a fast day. I am hoping that the combination of these two ways of thinking will be what I need. Fasting, to help me eat less, and paleo to help me eat healthy. I hope this works out because I'm tired of being fat and tired.

I knew this would happen.

Today was planned. It really was. I don't normally cheat but today I did. I had an old friend that I met up with for lunch and she chose to go to the Cheesecake Factory. Needless to say, I doubt anything I ate there was really true to their calorie counts. I only took my drops twice today and I doubt I got enough water in for the day. So I'm calling today a bust in the hopes that I'll be pleasantly surprised tomorrow morning when I weigh in. HA! Whatever.

Phase 2 Day 3
All I ate today was the pear and endive salad from the Cheesecake Factory and a little more than half a piece of key lime cheesecake. Oh, I also had a little tilapia as my son didn't finish it and I just can't stand to see food go to waste especially when I bought that food for me. So the calorie count on the salad according to the menu said less than 590 and the cheesecake was something like 890 for the whole piece. Regardless of this, I had sugar. Oh, and I ate the bread on the table. And it was white bread. So I'm boned. I also did not workout unless you consider walking around the mall in 4 inch heels for an hour. On the bright side, I weighed in at -1.5 lbs although I'm sure that my food will negate that tomorrow. Oh, did I say the bright side? Never mind on that. Tomorrow will be better.

Life's little temptations

So today was interesting. I had a harder time sticking with the program today than I did yesterday. I drank less, though I don't know exactly how much, and my willpower wavered. Who knew couponing on an empty stomach was so bad! I got so hungry while cutting coupons that all these thoughts of giving up ran through my head. It's only been one day! How pathetic is that?

Phase 2 Day 2
I weighed in at -3.5 lbs this morning. I was kind of hoping for more of a return but no such luck. Maybe tomorrow will make up for it. For lunch I had an apple and teryaki beef with tomatoes. I didn't used to like teryaki beef. I'm more of a chicken fan but for some reason doing this made me like it. I drank water but as I said before, I don't know how much. I tried to clean up today but didn't get very far. I guess it doesn't matter because once the kids got home they completely negated that act. I went for a "run" tonight before dinner. I made a very bad choice in doing some sprints right out the gate. Not a good thing and I'm sure I'll pay for it tomorrow. I was really feeling it in my lungs. Pathetic! I had every intention of doing yoga but I'm just so tired! I don't know how going for a run makes that fact any better but probably because I only did a little over a mile of jogging, sprinting, and walking. Dinner consisted of a salad with chicken and sweet mustard sauce. I think I used the wrong mustard because it didn't taste the same as I remember. I used dijon mustard. Maybe I used to use plain, yellow mustard. I'll have to check on that. I'm going to try to go to bed but Thing 3 is not being very accommodating once again. Here's hoping!

Starting over...again.

I am starting over again. I don't know whether to consider this a failure because I even have to start over or a good thing because I haven't given up. Who knows. Whatever the case may be, I am trying to lose the weight that I lost last round and then put back on. I am starting pretty much at square one and so here we go.

Phase 2 Day 1
This morning I was not feeling great because of lack of sleep. It was daylight savings last night and I was awake but I missed it. I know, lame. I was also ripped from dreamland by Thing 3 screaming in the night. I retrieved my screaming child and brought said child to bed with me wherein I was repeatedly abused by a restless child who for some unknown reason decided to kick me in the head all night long. Needless to say, my alarm going off this morning was not welcome.

I skipped breakfast but did have some water. I took a bottle of water to church so that I could stay hydrated. I don't know what it is but I had to pee like mad all day long. It felt never ending and yet I didn't feel like I drank very much. According to the Mayo Clinic website which I accessed, I think I met my daily requirement for water today. That will be a first in a long time. Sad, I know.

Lunch consisted of tilapia and 2 roma tomatoes. I probably should have only had one but I opted for two today. I also had an apple. The last rounds that I've done I broke it up and had the apples as snacks but this round I thought I'd try to just have two meals instead of meals and snacks. I don't know if it will make a difference but it's worth a shot. Dinner was chicken with broth and about half a cucumber. I skipped the fruit as I was pretty much full. I guess we'll see what tomorrow brings. My goal is to do yoga every day, walk or run. I hope I can make it.

R2 P2 Day 31

So I'm a loser. Yesterday I had dried green mangoes, cookies, I had fish for lunch, and finished off my day with an egg and cheese omelette. So as you can see I didn't do the transition into Phase 3 so I guess I could just start that today but I've already had two cookies. I am dumb, I know. I only had the weekend left and then my three day transition but I didn't make it. I just haven't had my heart in it this time so I may have to do this again which sucks. I had no change in weight which is surprising. I really thought I would have gained a boat load but I'm sure it will catch up to me so from here on out, I think I will move onto Phase 3 and try to stay away from carbs and especially sugar. I pretty much stopped taking the drops last night. I really hope I can maintain from here on out. I am going to start doing some resistance training so that I can tone up and maybe like the figure I have.

R2 P2 Day 30

Yesterday I was good. I had chicken soup for lunch, an apple for a snack, and then beef with cabbage for dinner. I wonder if the cabbage doesn't agree with me because it seems that I always gain on the days that I have cabbage. Maybe I should learn. I guess that's why I rarely have it. I am so tempted to just end it today but I really only have 4 days left until I stop the drops which is good because I'm almost out. I weighed in this morning at +1 lb. It really sucks. Maybe today will be a better day.

R1 P2 day 29

So yesterday was an apple day. Nothing special there. My apples were smaller this time around since I was having trouble eating them in past times. I didn't do anything special. I did exercise yesterday but since it was just walking, I doubt it did anything. This morning I weighed in at -1 lb. I wonder if that will stick tomorrow or even go down. I only have a few more days left until I stop the drops on Sunday. I am hoping for a miracle but am doubting that it will come. Oh well. I made it this far even if it was a troubled journey. Keep pressing on.