R1 Day 20

So this morning I was really hopeful and then...nothing. No change in weight today. I am wondering again if I should do an apple day. I wonder if it would even make a difference today. I did eat melba toast twice yesterday because I was so hungry. Maybe I should have just drank water or tea instead. Maybe I should have taken another dose of HCG. Who knows. Today I'll skip the toast and if there is no change I'm doing an apple day tomorrow. This is getting depressing! I have essentially stayed at the same weight for the last 5 days. Screw it! I think I am doing an apple day today. I don't see where I could be retaining water unless it is in my stomach because all the usual places seem fine. I even got in all my water last night, albeit late but I got it in. I guess today we'll see how it goes. I'll skip my morning fruit and do my 6 apples. This sucks rocks!

Fast Forward to tonight...

So today was an apple day for me and as far as it went, well...eh. First of all, I have been hungry lately. Really hungry and I had run out of HCG on a weekend and could not get more until Monday. I had enough drops to last me that long but let's just say I dumped the last of the bottle out for my Monday morning dose. So it has me wondering if the HCG was a little...thin. So in preparation of my apple day, I went to the grocery store and bought the biggest apples I could find. I don't know if you've ever seen a Jonagold apple but they are huge! I'm talking mondo! I think this thing was like 4 inches in diameter. So I'm thinking, yeah...I'll have no trouble doing this apple day because it doesn't tell you how big the apples have to be in fact it encourages you to have large ones. Well, it was all I could do just to choke 2 down today and one regular size Granny Smith apple. I'm counting the Jonagolds as 2 each because there is just no other way I am going to be able to choke down another three apples by lunch tomorrow. I barely made it through the Granny Smith apple this evening four or five hours after I had finished the last apple. So I will do one in the morning and call it my six. I guess we'll see how it goes from there. Needless to say, I feel sick! My stomach feels upset and I haven't peed much today but I did have a BM. Sorry, TMI, I know. Some of the websites I went to said that there are other ways to break a plateau. One was to substitute tomatoes instead of apples. I don't know which is worse. Don't get me wrong. I like them both but I don't know if I could do this again so here's hoping that I won't have to. One site said you could do a steak day in lieu of an apple day but I think that is just for phase 3. I'm not sure. There are just so many conflicting ideas that it is hard to weed out the unnecessaries. If I don't lose a good amount tomorrow I don't know what I'll do. I did do some kettlebell exercises today for ab work and I went for a 2.5 mile walk this morning. I hope that isn't affecting my weight loss. That would be really sad. Exercise is another item that is sketchy according to my research. Some say good others not so much. I seriously need to drop 5 lbs tomorrow just to catch up. If some inches would come off that would be nice too. It makes me wonder exactly what I am losing...bone mass? Because it doesn't feel like I'm losing fat stores. It doesn't look like it either.