The end of the load

So I did my 48 hrs of loading and frankly, all I feel is bloated. I have read that some people have gained 5 lbs overnight but I didn't do that. I may have gained 1 or 2. My guts are in a knot over all the grease and fat I consumed and even so, I think that it was less grease and fat than other people have eaten. Since I started my drops in the afternoon, I ended my load day in the afternoon. I have not really been feeling any symptoms yet but it hasn't really been that long. I had planned on not eating because I started Phase 2 (P2) late. I did have an apple around 4:30. I have actually been waiting for P2 to start because I have been feeling so crappy trying to find out what to eat to stuff myself. So, oddly enough, I did feel hungry but not until 8:00 pm. So I had a makeshift chicken soup with half a cucumber on the side. And I feel pretty good. I actually feel kind of full. I spent some time this afternoon separating all my meat. It's weird because I didn't think that it made that much but if you consider it, that much meat would normally have made only 5 or less meals for my family before and now it's going to last me about 20 days. As I write I am feeling a little congested, not nasally, but in my chest like I ate too much. My stomach is also feeling a little icky. I think everything is coming back at me. I am starting to wonder if I just haven't realized how awful crappy food makes me feel. How sad is that?! I have been eating poorly so long that it feels normal. Maybe this will get me back to where I should be. Don't get me wrong, I don't eat all that bad but since I got married I eat worse. A lot worse. The Man did not grow up the same way as I did. Most of his food presented itself in a box or a can. I had a garden and ate a lot of vegetables growing up. I made dinner at his parent's house once and they had no idea what some of the vegetables were. I get that at the grocery store, too.