Going nowhere...

It has been about three months since I have started walking/jogging. Within that time I have logged over 150 miles and have almost completed my challenge. I have 45 miles left to go to complete my 180 miles by New Year's Eve and I think at the rate I am going I will complete it by the end of the month. I have almost reached the point in my routines where I can honestly say that my motivation is me and not disappointing other people. I have lost about 6 lbs so far. All these things are accomplishments. All these things give cause for celebration. All these things are evidence of progress. So why do I feel like I am going nowhere? It has been a month since I have lost any weight. At least I have not increased but I am not losing. I have been suffering the effects of a full fledged attempt at weight loss...my weight is on the forefront. I think part of the reason I am the size that I am is because I just ignored myself and my weight. I didn't realize, as most don't, that I was getting bigger. My pants seemed to stretch with me for a while until, of course, I had to replace them. And now that I have decided that I am going to lose ALL the weight, it is depressing me. I look at myself in a different way now. No longer am I happy that I got up and did my hair or put on makeup for the day, now I see the rolls and the bumps, I see how poorly my clothes actually fit me and I am disgusted. I can really see now why people do fad diets and weight loss pills and even surgery. We, as a society want to see results quickly. I guess it is a sign of the times because when my computer takes more than a few seconds to download something or to close a window, I get irritated. I have been suffering the effects of the realization of my weight more recently than ever. I have even contemplated doing HCG just so that I can feel like I have done something. I want to feel like the work I am doing has been worth it. So far, I don't feel like I have made a difference in the way I look and the only difference I feel in the way I am feeling is that I can go longer distances without stopping. It is depressing to me to feel like this. I am not normally one who looks for a short cut but I am getting there. I know in my heart that if I lose the weight right I will be less likely to gain it back but I admit that the prospect of losing it quickly is quite enticing. I need to find a way to be able to see the difference in me and not wait for other people to tell me. Any tips?